“Conversations with God”


wpid-20130804_121824.jpgToday I recieved my copy of Naele Donald Walsch´s well recommended “Conversations with God”. A number of sites – “Buddhist Boot Camp” I remember – has it as a recommended book to read for it´s filiosophical and open uncomplicated nature (though there are some very complicated reasoning in this first chapter that I have read so far).

I want to share with you the parts and sentences that I underlined during the reading and that cought my interrest.

  • “The best prayer is never a pray to recieve somtething but a prayer of gratitude”
  • “…what you know is what is shown as your reality”
  • “you are given the choice to do what you want with your life”
  • “Every human thought and act comes from either a feeling of love or fear. There is no other human motivation…”
  • “There is no other meaning of life, which apply to you and all other living, and that is to experience complete bliss”
  • “Therefore, don´t try to find who you are, try instead to define who you want to be”
  • “…you can not experience yourself who you are before you know who you´re NOT”
  • “Don´t judge the karma path someone takes.. Don´t envy success, and don´t pity missfortune as you do not know what is success or failure in the soul’s final bill”
  • “Every circumstance is a gift and every experience is a hidden treasure”
  • “And remember that your biggest trial may be your biggest triumph”
  • “It is much easier to change what you do yourself than to change what somone else does”
  • “As long as you nourish the thought that there is something/somebody out-there “doing” things towards you, you deprive yourself the power of doing something about it”
  • “The way to diminish the the pain you attach to worldly experiences and events – you own and others – is to change the way you look at them”
  • “Something is only right or wrong because you say it is so. There is nothing right or wrong in it self”
  • “Feeling is the force that attracts. What you feel great fear of, that you will experience”


12juli Caminon

Today I am in my third week of a yogaprogram running over twelve weeks. Every morning I step up somewhat earlier in the morning to listen to Sara E guiding me through a short yoga-pass. Ten to fifteen minutes. Beginning with deep breathing, sufi.circles, respiratory anchor, babypose and ending with a bodyscanning. I find it really rewarding, doing it on a daily basis. It has been my goal to achieve that. As a daily routine. Everyday giving myself the good practise of yoga, meditation, breathing. I´ve had it as a goal but failed as I thought I had to do very long passes  every day. It is achievable when not having that as a must and finding a way through these short everyday passes. And I can already feel the difference it brings to me. I feel lighter. More focused. Less stressed in situations of stressy nature. In meeting of certain people that can make me unsecure, stressed I feel a difference in how I meet them. How I listen. How I look at them. I try to be, and I succeed in, beeing here and, now focused on the very moment that is happening here and now with me and others.
I am reading the book of Don Miguel Ruiz – “The four agreements” – and it helps me getting my mind in focus, and aware while the doing is happening. I can more control my behavior in the present and that is a great and sensational experience. To be able to direct my self in the step. In the making. Talking. It is really magic to realize that it is possible to change the manner in which I act and react. Thanks to meditation, yoga, walking long distances, meeting different people with all the different experiences and backgrounds, lerning techniques to control my breath, control my body, control my mind, control my thoughts makes a big difference in the everyday life.
Tomorrow evening I will also have my, so longed after hatha-yoga pass with my regular group.




Today I have been thinking of this word. When I began I thought, in my lack of englishlanguageknowledge, that it was spelled Responsability. My spelllchecker corrected me, “RESPONSIBILITY my friend”. But, anyway. I didn’t want to let go of my first idea so I continue my mindwondering of the word: ability to respond, to give respons, to react. (If there us a better word for it that you anglo speaking would use I’ll be happy to learn).
Here I go. What it stands for? In my own respect and in the respect of others, my follow humans. The word it self. Responsi(a)bility. Ability to give and take respons. Respons to what? In my own respect, my ability to respond to my feelings, emotions, reactions, pressure, cravings, needs etc. To be able to notice these different sensations in my body, soul and mind and react in, for me, a positive way and without hurting anyone else.
In respect of others to give my sincere opinions with full respect to others and myself. To see that others reactions (on me) is a mirror of their self, as derived from from their lifehistory and Please dont confuse my own self and lay it up on me (it will be a heavy load to carry). My responsi(a)bility is to keep the others, negative, reactions out of me, not to infect my self with their short coming, anger, fears and lacks. To be fully responsible for our reactions is the only way for us to change anything. If the reaction is on something I did or someone else did doesnt matter. I can not change anyone else. All I can change is my self. To change the World, in small or in big, I must start with my self. I must always start with my self. My reactions, my behaviour, and this is the big big oppurtunity. How I react is a mirror of how I See the World. How I look at the World around me, if I see it in white or black. If I begin to se the World in another way it is the beginning of the change. I can change the World. I am an important part in it. The most important part really. In my life great tools are meditation, yoga and I practise selfcontrol, mindfulness and bodycontrol, breathing, awareness and mindfulness.
That’s all for today.

To my heart


...in the flow...

At last
I recieved
the message
telling me to come

Been waiting
and worrying
what will be

What will be
I have no clue
I will be aware
I will be aware

My faith is strong
can´t go wrong
have trust
have trust

At last
I recieved
the message
telling me to come

It is near
in time
It is near
in me

My heart
I can hear you
my life

My heart
I can feel you
me life

Tears come
Words fail
So close
So close

At last
I recieved
the message
telling me to come

Surprised am I
never would imagine
like this




Let it come
let it be



This sunday I took part in a city retreat in Stockholm. IMY, the institute for Medicinsk Yoga. The theme was yoga, chakrabalance. The seven chakras and moves for balancing them.
I arrived in good time before the start. After paying the fee I found a place in the room on a nice, new, woolblanket. As I lay down with my eyes closed I listen to the other participants arriving.
Prompt nine o’clock Sara begins guiding us through the day.
First of all we find our breathing. Filling our belly and chest all the way up to the collarbone in a deep, deep breath.
Sitting in simple yoga position we begin balancing the chakras.
1 Root
We start rotating the hip clock wise. Breath in when rotating to the right and breath out även we rotate the second half of the circle. We do this one/two minutes then the same counter clock wise.
2 Sexual
Now we sit on our knees with our heels under the bottom. Hands holding the front wrist. Then begin flexing the spine. Breathing in while flexing forward, breathing out while flexing backward.
3 Belly
Still sitting on the knees and our hands on the thigh we flex the spine. Breathing in and out flexing forward and backword.

These three chakras are very important to have in balance since they have a big influence on the other chakras.

4 Heart
For this chakra, that works like a connection between the first three and the last three, we lay our hands on the shoulders with the fingers facing front. On breathing in, rotate the body to the left, breathing out, rotate to the right. Don’t overdo the twist. It mustn’t hurt.
5 Neck
For this chakra we imagine having a chalk on our jaw drawing circles. First small circles getting bigger and bigger. Breath in the first half and breath our the second half. Change direction.
6 Third eye
For this chakra we stand on the knees and hands flexing the spine. While flexing down we breath in and the face looking up. Flexing up look down and breath out.
7 Top
For the topchakra, interlace your fingers and place them above the crown of the haed. In this position begin the “breath of fire” and continue this for one to three minutes.

This was the great part of the cityretreat. We also did a gong meditation, and we used the voice.
The retreat was all in silence. I bought a twelve week yoga program developed by Sara. Four CD’s. I will use that to start practising yoga as an everyday practise. Research says that short yoga sessions everyday is better than few long sessions. Then I have my hatha-yoga class on wednesdays and saturdays, and the short sessions following Sara’s CD instructions.

I feel grateful and happy to have found and connected to yoga, giving me energy, openess and a flexibel body, soul and mind.

Mountains to climb


I know now that I have a Mountain to climb. It’s a very big, steep and high Mountain. Presently Im at the very start of this camino. It’s not Camino Frances, It’s not Camino Norte. It’s camino Cuerpo y Alma. Where Im now I walk along calm streams where I can dip my feet. In Woods of eacalyptus trees. Branches from unknown bushes swipe my face now and then. It’s Most uphill, not to steep yet, and flatland where I can see far along the path and a few downhill parts. Not always the easy parts as here I can stumble and fall. I will stumble and fall. I will need company. I will need to talk. I will need compassion. I will need water and rest. I can imagine whats on the other side, pass the top. At the end of this part of the camino. A serene place, camino, where I can rest. Where I can lay me down and rest. Lay me down in the fields of gold watching the sky, following the clouds as they move and change. I will have very steep parts. I will be in doubt if I will make it. Then I’ll sitt down. Reflecting. Watching the view, enjoying the wonderful landscape. Thinking over whats important. Carpe Diem my friends. Tomorrow may never come. Today is only today. Be greatful for every breath you take. Be greatful for opening your eyes beeing able to see. Be greatful for this day.